Carina shares her experiences with codependency (Part 4)

Got into a relationship, a long term relationship. At first, like things were really great and then again I was searching for this meaning of life, meaning of what the world would be if, you know, nothing else mattered. I found that we became very codependent on each other because there really wasn't anything else at this point. I'd really had some drama with my family. I had cut them off pretty much. So it was only him and his family that I really found I had solace in. And so it's a lot for someone to have that much, you know, depending on them. It isn't good for either of us, I think because we were both in the acting industry and we were both trying to get work. It became a little bit of a competition as well. Then eventually I ended up landing a role in a film which was my first main role in a feature film, which I was absolutely stoked. There were about 300 people that I think auditioned for that role. And so I flew to Tasmania to film that film. Leading up to it, my boyfriend and I at the time would have little fights here and there that just kind of alluded to the fact that we somewhat had detached a bit from each other. You know, like it wasn't working and we could see that it wasn't really working. But because we've been with each other for so long, we were codependent on each other, we were still together. And so then I went away and I did this film. And it was all shot in the Tasmanian wilderness. So it was like being away from the world for a while to be able to focus on what I really love, which is acting. It was just such a clearing my head experience. I really felt like I, for the first time in a while, had thrived being who I was. And I guess it was the first time that I'd spent away from him for quite a while as well. And I felt, I guess, free when I came.